Oh man...

It's been awhile since I posted here. Well some stuff I need to remember and say. I'll make it short tho

Tuesday, I got laid off work. Funny how people are like omg thats so sad and I'm like *shrug* I'm fine with it lol

And now my girlfriend is coming back soon and I'm addicted to like 2 games. LOL oh god ._.

That is all :)

Miniture snicker, I mean story.

:*tap tap*
:Hm?
:Can I get your name?
:May ask why?
:...Because you're the first one that didn't ignore me.

UNhealthy?!

I don't think I've been healthy since my gf went to camp...

Coworkers...

LOL OH MY OH MY. My coworkers and my leader are hella hilarious! We had a whole discussion about sex, sex positions, sex this, sex that. Hahahah! And my leader was like WHY ARE YOU TELLING EVERYONE THIS?! I'm like because you asked! LOL

*sigh*

I speak highly of you because of how lowly I think of you...

Facebook Event.

So I decided to throw a event on facebook, I'm really excited to see how it turns out. if it turns out good I may do it again :3

Thinking again...

So my girlfriend, Michelle Yoo is going to camp soon. :\ I wonder how I'm gonna react to it once she is there and left me all alone abandoned. It's gonna be like a poor new born puppy in a dark alley aside trashcans. Contained in a cardboard box on a rainy day squealing for warmth. While the mother is no where in sight.....

Today was good, I managed to clean up a lot. The only thing I haven't cleaned was my desk and myself. HAHAHA :P
My cute little afar away cousins came today :) Woohoo! I got to hear more of my little cousin's Aussie accent :P
Loaned my sister $200.00 for her credit card bill or something *shrug* I'm so nice to her :\
Got starbucks and boston market today. Yum! I also got my dad a coffee from starbucks and he drank all of it even the ice O_O Then I told him it was around $3.00 and he freaked and wanted a refund x) <3

Time to take a shower! buhbye!

Thinking...

To want something is being spoiled.
To need something is being productive.
To have something is a gift
To give something that you have, is giving a gift.
(Probably could of thought this better, if I put more time in it...)

OMG I have a Australian/Australian accent cousin! She is so adorable! I love her accent, I'm hella going to make her talk tomorrow! :) And take hecka hecka picktors!

Des pick able me tomorrow with the gf! :P

Bad day?

Tired sleepy in the morning did not want to go to work, because I woke up at 5 and fell back asleep till 7:30. Who likes doing that.. tell me who?!
Some reason I was hyper at work... >.>
Two new asian chicks are working there now. One is pretty cute, my friend is training her. Lol. Now I can tease him bwahaha. But I love him for all the help he has helped me with.
Told leader I was leaving at 4:40 (No overtime, 8hours only). I was scared to tell him because I don't like being told to stay and do overtime. ...Work shouldn't make people feel this way! :\
Drove to a park/Lake idk wtf it was... Side of the free way. Was looking at the GPS seeing where I was going and apparently I was driving in the wrong lane and luckily the car took the other lane for me. I'm so sorry other car :\
Got onto the freeway and fuckin' cars won't let me in their lane. I'm hella generous to others I wish other people were as considerate as me sometimes... -.-

ITS SO FLUFFY!

Oh man I hella want to watch that movie, "Despicable Me". Fuck I can't even spell that word right ._.
Well I got my 3month anni present from Michelle. :D And its a penguin plush! The one I hella wanted :3 and guess what? ITS SO FLUFFFYYY Was my first reaction xD Well second.. my first one was hmm, I wonder what it is that I can probably already get o.o But yea, I don't have it yet :D Woot Thanks babe :3

Oh right so I went to a fleamarket today at JFK. It was pretty interesting and expensive. Such ripoffs. BUT OMG There was bunnies and kitties there :\ That made me so sad in a way, but excited at the same time. Some fuckin jerk talks about eating the bunny... I hope someone eats him :\ There were also some old fashion cameras. The only one I remembered were Minolta, Canon, and Nikon. They were such in bad condition too, not worth the $10-$50. There was also a Kingston Class 4, 4GB SDHC Card for $5. I thought that was cheap, but I wasn't so sure. And I don't think I would need it anyways. I'm just gonna google/ebay it now just to see if I missed out on a profit.

Today, I'm not feeling so well either... My nose is weird and my lip thing is very annoying, and some reason I feel uneasy.. :\
Have a nice day everyone :\

I feel old...

Some reason I just wanna go back to the past and listen to all them oldies songs that I can just reminisce on :) I need to make some sorta slow song CD.
On the other hand I wanna just go to a bar/cafe that just plays soothing music so I can sip on some coffee/soda/non-alcoholic beverage.
Another thing I wanna blog about is, don't you just hate a friend's/acquaintance's family member disliking you or even hating you? It's retarded, if they hate me I guess I'll just stay away. Fuck it, I don't want to stress over it. Their loss ^_^ Sorry to come up sounding cocky.

Currently listening to Janet Jackson - Doesn't really matter.

Something New

I decided to change up my bloggerspot I think I'll be trying to use it more anyways... Yup yup I love my new design spent 30min-60min on it. I'll be trying to upload a picture of something recent I took if possible if I don't post :P

Thanks for reading/following. Kudos!

Quote from a song I deeply love.

"Love is not a trend."

Can't do it.

我想等待，但我有工作

*sigh* You are not hardcore...

I love how kids these days can say shit behind the internet. If you're gonna be all hard shit then say it to my face. Thinking you know the situation, assuming before analyzing? That just shows you are still fuckin' immature. Either go through puberty faster, or keep your mouth shut. I don't give a shit, I have far more important things in life that is worth my time compared to the mistakes the world got bringing you into it.

Don't give in, Give out. Don't go in and become like the others, go out and be another. Explore then to be cooped up. :)

The days...

So at 11:52PM today all I could think about was the up coming 8 minutes. I was not able to leave Alfonzo's house because her aunt wanted me to drive her to buy liquor. I stayed for awhile and the Three people I was with got all crazy. I was taking care of them and now I'm finally home. I texted some people about this day but they all said it would be better if I..., but I shall await. Oh well, I don't know what to do. I'm hella pooped though. Good night.

Do not become too reliant on drugs, or they will be your life and your life will be theirs... :)

Thoughtless...

So my sister got a Tattoo today of a fuckin stupid hello kitty bow... I'm just so speechless and can't believe how unthoughtful she was... Was she thinking about mom and dad before she did this? She already has a fuckin' tattoo of some gibberish on her back that she's been hiding. My mom saw it and the parents had a dispute with her and I have to suffer the loud appalled voices. Why is my sister so inconsiderate, not to even think of me, not even going through it with me. Should I have some say in this? Why do I have to keep my mouth shut while you do your secret shit. I've been so nice to you, to not reveal your stupid actions.
There is such thing as a trend, and something meaningful. When hello kitty perishes what then? You're just so damn cool with a bow on your wrist? At least have it meaningful... There is no justified meaning in a pink bow...
Its funny how I hate how my parents let us do what we want. Sometimes I wish we had more strict parents. If we had a white family, after 18 we'd probably get sent out on our own. I wish it was like that right now, then there would be no way my sister would have been able to afford a tattoo ._.
I'm too mad and speechless to rant anymore...

...Yet I know after this post it just a sticker of a smile slapped on my face...

First day of summer.

I just saw it on Google LOL I love how google's picture ad thingy ma-bob keeps me updated with almost every historical/yearly events. I didn't even know it was the first day of summer.

Well I think this is m first year of summer where I actually am working hard. Eh... Not that its gonna last long but i'm just saying.
Summer school Freshman year was a pain with English but all good.
Summer school taking PE was fun, I actually broke sweats :P But that was the heat.
Hope you catch my drift :P

Well working 6AM-9PM for this week, Fuck moi life ya? x_x

Thank you and have a nice day.

Can you please...?

I don't understand why people offer to do something when they fuckin' don't go all the way through with it. If you can't manage to follow through at least fuckin' say so afterwords. I'm starting to lose my interest in these people or talking to their flakin' ass.

Another thing I want to rant on is that why would someone bitch about something when you can fuckin' do something about it.
Facebook, A person said they're lonely. If you're lonely why don't you hit someone up because we all know you have friends... Me, when I feel lonely I might go to my mommy because family are always better than friends. I love my mother so I would choose her over anyone. She can be frustrating at moments but all my love still belongs to her :D

Sometimes I feel like I want to be an asshole to people infront of their face, and tell the truth. Its not like they're important to me. And maybe they'll improve their pathetic self.

How sad....

So I just realized that life is bull shit...
Didn't hit me till today because these mexicans got $600~ for their paycheck. I was jealous till my co-worker said, "You're just working for your car right? They however are working to pay off rent and what not." So food for thought, I never deeply considered their life style. In someway, I put it as they're just working to survive. I know I should be glad I'm not in their shoes, however if I was, I don't think I would be able to make it. I should be glad I am not one of them. I feel really bad now for calling them inconsiderate in my mind... Maybe they're just stressing and too grumpy. Regardless I've always been nice to each and every single worker there.

Well I'm gonna be working overtime tomorrow, I too like money :)

Something out of the randomness: My finger smells like mustard :3

Note to self.

Rant about life and friends and how the virtual world is meaningless.

Oh the thoughts...

Watched Dear John today. I liked it, good movie. Just I don't understand how you can write to someone constantly everyday... It just kinda seems absurd. I can't even post daily, lol. ifail...

Anyways after 3 sick days ._. and still trying to recover the first thing I ended up doing is playing starcraft II Beta, HAH. I fail again...

Somethings I really wanted to do...
-Eat double Vanilla ice cream thats been siting in my fridge.
-Buy Cherry 7UP
-Take the gf Swimming
-Play some people in SC2
-eat something yummy like omg im dying of hunger right now :[ *cries and pouts*

Pick me up?

Oh I had a rant yesterday but I forgot it...

Yeah, having a job isn't as go-happy as I thought. I suppose if its an simpler job it would be okay. I think I'm doing too much of a hard manual labor job ._. Debating on quitting but if I do its back to school for me. I don't wanna go back to school, I'll only go for photo class though. So I make $10 an hour. I work 8hours everyday. 5 days this week. so I make $80 a day x5. I make 400.00 a week. Then you -tax money. GAY... Idk, but I'll just cut that in half so I make around $200 a week. Hm...

Well today I wanted to drop off my girlfriend, Michelle at school. But she said she was already going so, I guess I couldn't see her today. At least it would of made my day better. Guess its all exhaustion and stress from here.

So at work I have to learn the basics which were putting a stand, power supply, blue-tooth, camera, microphone, audio, 2 speakers, and 3 fans into the computer.
Now I have to learn more stuff; motherboard, antenna, system set up, system failures, write reports, request/ask for materials. Basically more shit added onto the first pile of shit so it gets shittier ._.

I thought I would never complain because work is work. But maybe I'm complaining just because the work condition sucks. Maybe I will work better if I had English speakers, better instructions/instructors/leaders, friends maybe, and not a crowded/packed working environment._.

Really now?

4th day working. I'll try to make this short. I'm sorry I haven't been posting for those who like to read about my day x) I never knew what labor was, until I started working. LOL My pretty hands are now all like stubby like. :\ I miss my soft hands! haha I feel it getting rough and stuff... :\ I haven't been using my Nikon D90 either! My poor baby! Baby baby baby nooo!! Well my stubby, working hands are probably not worth touching that god like camera anymore :[

That's all I wanted to post. Working getting me super tired lately, yup yup.

I super Miss MICHELLE TOO! D:

To Michelle; From facebook.

I'm not gonna try to drag this conversation along, just because we can save it to talk about in person instead of being so quiet XD

And you can always erase/delete what you write before confirming. XD
Lol, but what if sometimes I get lazy? I just wanna ask you, and make you think about it haha. Besides if I know you would be okay with something, I would like to be reassured. :P
When you gave the examples of how clingy you were, I suppose only a girl could tell. I find that just sweet and cute. But don't cry for me... please ._. lol. such a waste of tears.
Sure, i'll let you know if something bothers me and you do the same :3
Dang girl you should just think of these stuff to say and say it to me in person. Then we'll have long conversations again! haha.
Hehe thats good, don't be to stressed out its bad for you!
I hope you're sleeping well. I think the next time I will see you is Sunday, May 16th. Which is like 10days from now. 9days from when you read this.

What a smiley face day!

So I went to sleep quite late last night. I thought I wouldn't be capable to wake up today. Thankfully I was able to wake up early enough to finish one homework assignment that was due today in English class. I had to do two, but I was only able to finish one. :\ I was very paranoid on turning it in.
Assile Osman, my buddy, worries me a lot. :\ This guy man, I swear he tells me he'll be at my house at 7:15AM. He then eventually shows up around 7:30AM. Gah, If he was any more late I would of gotten my mother to driven (is that a word?) me to school.
We arrive at Ohlone College, headed to the library. I give props to Assile, he's pretty dedicated in his education. I wish I was like that, but eh I guess it just isn't my forte.
I started to head to class, feeling remorse of my homework not being done. I waited in-front of class for around 2-3minutes just checking my mail through my iPod touch. At least the next person arrived after me was smart enough to look at the paper posted. It said class was canceled! Oh boy was I glad! This is why I am posting right now. This is probably the most earliest post I have ever made and will probably ever do. I am currently blogging in Hyman Hall, pretty loud computer work area.

Michelle do not get upset or angry at what you are going to read. If you think you will, please disregard the next paragraph. XD But I'm pretty sure we're gonna be open right? If you do get mad please notify me :3
So I am noticing this girl siting across from me. She looks pretty nice. :) She has a cute face. I think she would look better if her hair wasn't clipped upwards. I view all girls with their hair up in some fashion to be ugly, well not ugly, uhm... unattractive. Her eyes look nice too, well when she was looking down, haha. That might of sounded rude. Overall, looking unique.

So I have a girl and a guy next to me right now speaking Korean. Haha, what a beautiful language. Due to me over excessively obsessing with starcraft, popular Korean game league. Every time I hear people speaking Korean, that is the first thought that flies through my head. Overall, I love the girl's hair. Its like brunette with small few curls at the ends. Pretty cool, pretty cool.
There is also a guy siting where that other girl was siting. I'm glancing at his earring, wanting my ear to be like that. Too bad I'm afraid of needles XD so I guess I'll never get my ear pierced.

I guess I'm gonna end it here. I wish I brought my headphones :\ Have a nice day everyone. I hope your day is better then mine... HAH! Not today! My day pwns everyone's day today! Bwahaha!

IMPORTANT!

I may/might not be posting for the next 1-7days. The reason with this is because I will be getting my DSLR(Digital Single Lens Reflex) camera today! Can't wait to get my Nikon D90 and play with it! Like all people we all part from what is important to fiddle with something of anew. I also won a bid yesterday on Ebay, for a 32GB SDHC memory card. This might not be arriving for 3-4weeks sadly. It is coming from China, or Hong Kong or Shanghai if you wanted to be specific. I think its easier to say China, unless I am living around China. I mean you aren't gonna get specific if you were in China, saying, "I'm getting a package from Ohio." I believe you'll just say the USA or US.

Something extra

You post a picture hoping to get a comment.
I post a picture for its content.
You tag others to be viewed.
I tag others for a break through.
You post a video, for its mischief.
I post a video to be informative.
So wassup?
Grow up.
-Weeul

Talk about being awake...

I woke up early, around 9. I set my alarm to that time yet I am incapable of my completion of waking up so early. So I set my alarm for an additional hour to sleep, then I get a call. The Honda dealership guy called me and asked if I was able to go again. This guy really wants to sell me the car, haha. I just kind of brushed him off, due to the lack of sleep. I slept pretty late tracking my DSLR package order. That and I didn't want to sleep until I played few games of starcraft and I kept losing. :\ I hate playing against 3 AI computers. :X But its more of a challenge then 1v1 comp. AI.

Got ready to go to Ohlone College, with all my photo materials. I had an empty box of photo paper, so I filled it half way with another box. I also brought my fiber based box of photo paper to sum them up. Oh man was it difficult to count in the dark. I was sure I used around 3-4 sheets and cut 1 up. When I counted the total came out to be 103? Haha, I must have miscounted. I just went to my photo site class where almost no one ever goes on. I went there to get some people's name haha. Good way for reference, due to my lack of memory. Apparently Ann won 2nd place in the photo contest, shes in my class. Also Kimhawk won 3rd, he's an acquaintance I've know for awhile. I didn't think it was the same guy, but apparently he is. Amazed me. His shot was spectacular too if I do say myself. I believe a guy in my class (still haven't learned his name so I went to look it up) name Chris wanted to buy a box of photo paper off me. I'm hoping he does, then I will be able to get my money back +$1.00. I was really hoping to make some profits with photo paper, guess not.
Started printing some shots for the stupid project. I made some super good! I was amazing surprised at how well I burned (technical term used in photography). I loved this print so much, I might not even give it to Michelle :\ LOL So I had my 3 set of photo ready, but I didn't like one of the set. I decided to make a new set, which took another hour and I don't think I like it either. Well I attempted to "spot" my pictures. Oh my god it was so fuckin' hard and requires so much patience, I hate it.
That reminds me I have to upload more shots I've been taking/printing in my photo class. I've been lagging on that area.

After photo I walked towards the bookstore. I purchased a PB&J sandwich, oh my god! Orgasm in my mouth... Enjoyed every single bite of it. I swear these sandwich are like so rare, lol. I believe the bookstore restocks on this once every two weeks, yet they run out within a day. That's how incredible they are! I also attempted to buy/drink an Arizona iced tea with cranberry juice. And the verdict, YUCK. I just finished it, forcefully. While I was heading back to my car, I forgot that I have left my photo binder in the bookstore. Shit, I thought. I have to walk all the way back up those damn stairs and then back down. Geez this is why my title of this blog is perfect. ._.

I came home and folded some clothes and organized some things in my car. After that I asked Marshall if I can drive his car. I wanted to see how it was to drive a manual. Talk about more difficulty! I was like a bobble-head in there! I felt sorry for Marshall because it was his car. I didn't know if I was damaging it so I felt some remorse. Again, If he reading this I thank you. I thanked him on facebook already :P

Oh man sometimes my mom just bewilder me so much my head hurts. She was asking me in Chinese,

Mom : What do you call those ghost things?
Me : Ghost.
Mom : What do they call them in India then?
Me : Wtf? They're still called ghost. I don't know how to speak Indian?
Mom : No, but they have horns!
Me : The devil? Here let me just google it ._.
Mom : No, I mean that thing you are in the chinese zodiac.
Me : Ox? Ram? *googles*
Mom : No not these! They have white fur!
Me : Oh my god, Sheep?! I don't think I'm a sheep in the chinese zodiac mom!
Mom : Yeah! Sheep, but they have horns!
Me : Goats?
Mom : Yes! Why that!

At the end, and from the beginning. My mom meant to say GOAT and not GHOST. Oh English language learners are so hard to cope with.

Well I need to clean up some, then get ready for bed. I will be waking up early tomorrow on my destination to my girlfriend's house. Oh shit, I wanna watch Star Trek movie before I go to sleep, damn. I probably left some information out of today but whatever. This is enough to read anyways.

Additional info:
Music: Justin Bierber - Baby ( yeah thats right shut up )
Mood: Sleepy, and needing to pee.
Yummy: Gonna go find some.

Enjoy the sunny weekend, Monday the rain water pours.

Obsession, Change, Dedication.

Notice: My blogs are shorter if I constantly post. In which my blogs happens to be horrifically long, its to make up for up coming days or days I have not posted.

Haven't posted in like three days now was it? Oh time progresses terribly fast. In my case for now, awfully slow. I've been obsessing over the time arrival of my new camera; Nikon D90 with 18-105mm lens. God damn it! It's still in transit to "Vernon". I hate this place, because I have no idea where it is!

As of now I am trying to sell a stranger my opened box of fiber photo paper. Its weird, like I might not trust someone to buy a box from unless its unopened. My reasons are because the box can be filled with any sheet of paper and you never know. Well I'm an honest person so my client is lucky. Teehee. I listed it as ~90+/100 sheets of paper. I'm well aware I only used 4 papers maximum. I'm thinking of taking like another 3-4 sheets of it. I mean its not dishonest or anything. End results the box still consist of ~90+ sheets :P Maybe I should ask if s/he is interested in purchasing my 35mm camera set too haha.
Well its confirmed. The customer and I are meeting on Sunday 10AM in front of borders around the parking lot. Oh man, I've never done a meet up before. This is kind of making me uncomfortable. I feel as if I need and should invite someone along. I'll try to be optimistic and think of the $50 I am going to make :)

I've also been looking at cars. I was on craigslist and I see two Mitsubishi Lancer Evo. Oh my god, they're so sexy. I want it! D: Oh well, probably settling with a Honda Civic EX instead :\

The crazy things we do for love...
So I've been thinking. Ever since I got a girlfriend, an incredible one if I may add. I think I've been turning into something I'm not. I don't refer to this as a bad thing, its just different. For one, I've been eating veggies and I got into salad wraps. >.> ewww... The other thing I thought of is that I tend to shop more. Weird? I know. I believe the world is ending. There's just some vibe I suppose she gives out haha. The negative thing about it all I guess, is the spending of money. I'm not saying she is materialistic either. Maybe its just my feeling of happiness I get with her which makes me want to make her happy in a way. I have to start seeing values in a penny again. Don't wanna turn into my sister.

The best shot can be lost less then a second...
Recently in my photo class, I've noticed so many in that class take it for granted. It really saddens me to know this, and I just kinda teared in my eyes haha. So lame, wow I'm getting really emotional all of a sudden. Anyways! Let me just rant about this. I'm not sure how many people feel this way, besides this girl. Apparently going out to take photo to her is "weird" unless someone is with you. I believe this is just total non-dedication. How are you going to care if someone has to be with you or not. If you ask me, I find it better to take photos alone. If I was to bring someone along with me, I have a guilt of them waiting for me to take my picture. Which then leads to rushing my picture. This may result in pictures that may not come out as I wanted. I guess my passion for photo burns brighter then theirs. I'm not trying to be cocky or anything either. I just admire it so

Additional info:
Music : GALAXY 68 - DJ PLAY MY SONG (SPECIAL D REMIX)
Feeling : Eye is pretty itchy maybe hair cut... psyche!
Yummy : Crush Cherry and maybe some hot cheetos soon.

Oh Engrish...

Ironic how the world functions, you may have love for one thing, but it can completely block you out...

SO I DIDN'T SLEEP TODAY!

Lets begin... I was doing my homework all night well partially. I was also on e-bay and maybe like 5minute of youtube. I had Rachel Ramos distract me from like 10-12, then she finally went to sleep. I found it creep that I actually finished all of it with some time to spare. As I am blogging right now, I should have been doing my Lab paragraph. But I finished that while I was supposed to be asleep I guess. I need to turn in my lab work soon, I've just been killing time and finishing other English work. Revising my how to paragraph it went from 4 pages to 2 pages and now 1.9 pages lol. Cutting it down yay. I'm pretty glad though that I am attempting to pass. I will finally find out if school is for me or not. I can't say I never tried! :)

English class was alright, not much to talk about. Had a guest speaker but it was really one of the counselors here at Ohlone.

Later I will be picking up my lady at JFK. I can't wait to see her :) I was about to get something for her too, hmm maybe I will get something for us. And not just her so she won't feel as guilty, teehee. I feel bad also that I might just go to sleep when I get to her house. Or actually maybe I'll make her come over for awhile then I will drive her back eventually! :) We shall see we shall see...

Oh boy I am hella sleepy... :\ I'll just cut it short here.

Given up?

How my day is going... I woke up to the rain drops slightly and gently hitting my window. As I started to apprehend the weather, it made me more drowsy. I loved the cool atmosphere and somewhat peaceful house. I got even more comfortable in my soft cuddly blankeys and I drifted away into my sleep. As I was drifting off I kept of thinking of my homework. As I cannot comprehend that I have not yet done anything yet (read the bottom to understand part of my feelings). It made me feel eerie, but I love sleeping everything off. Eventually my hectic sister comes into the house, then starts to speaks absurdly. As I woke up to her never muted mouth, again the thoughts of my life started banging. There is just no way I can have any feelings of remorse, I believe everything is done for a reason. It's pretty contradicting but if seen through the rightful eye, I believe it can be assimilated.

Sometimes its just best to not think and just do.

With that being said, its true. Sometimes I would just be in the shower debating if I wanna wash my hair or not. I hate how I waste water so, I try not to think too much of it and just wash my hair. Now, I am having a homework situation. I know I should probably just do it/start on it, but I don't see the point anymore. I have like 4 paragraphs in-class for %35 of our grade. I got a D on the first one and an F on the 2nd. I'm probably gonna get a D on my next one, maybe. 25% is based on lab work which I get Ds or Fs on it. I'm just starting to lose hope I suppose, very sad really. If I started with all happy good grades, I wouldn't be posting this and I would probably be working on my homework right now. Or maybe I would be posting thinking I'm too good and I don't need to worry. Maybe the world is just too judgmental. Ever slightly I wonder, what if my African-American professor thinks that because I'm Asian, I don't belong in an English class. Well maybe I just contemplate too much... way too much...

Miscellaneous:
Current song : You're Not Alone by Olive
Tabs : Ebay and Blogger
Feeling : Attempting to contemplate & Sleepy
Missing : Michelle and a cold icy soda :D
Chats : No one important

Aye Ess Dee Eff

asdf! So I should do my homework starting... now! But I'm blogging... LOL Ai yai ._. I've been putting off homework for 4 hours almost. Just thinking of it is too much! I don't want to do 2 paragraph's of homework. Gotta be all detailed and shit too. Gah. School is a poop, How do people stand college? I will never know. As of now I'm wondering what I should do. Maybe i'll do my, "how to" paragraph now after this blog. And I will do my other prompt writing paragraph tomorrow? Eh I'll just get to it soon. I hate how there are so many distractions in the world...

So I've ordered my DSLR camera finally! :D My D90 with 18-105mm lens. Oh boy I can't wait to get it in the mail. It haven't even shipped yet, so I can't really obsess on where it is at the very moment. Maybe its in the factory/shop still :[

Happy Two Weeks Michelle :)

Continue. Continuum?

Guess what! I'm back in blogging :3 I have gotten somewhat better. So I thought I might do things a little bit different. Instead of writing about my day in chronological order I just wanna rant about how I've been feeling. If you don't give a dookie then don't read just stop right... now. x)

Some feelings I've been feeling, as of now very happy and great. I love this song, "ATB - Justify". It my favorite as of right now without knowing the meaning, haha. Its just...Oh, just the music just lovely.

Another feeling I've been having is; hopeless. I have been feeling this way because I've been like yeah I'll go to school take a few classes and pass em. This shouldn't be too hard. So I take English, Photo, and Math (12 credits total full time student). I got depressed after giving up math and right now I don't even think I can pass English. ._. So I've wasted my parent's money. :\ each credit is around $26 I think? so 12creditx26dollars is $312.00. Well idk it sounded hella more expensive before. (Maybe because I'm looking at my DSLR camera and its what making it seem cheap. lol). So I know for sure I lost the Math money ._. because I already withdrew from that. And now if I don't pass English which doesn't seem like I will, I should of just paid of photo ._.
All my English paragraphs are like D-F work ._. but outside of class work that needed to be submitted to another teacher, its like C-B work. *Sigh*

Lasty, my feeling of a brighter, newer, and hardworking life. Regardless, I know its not a career. I know many people strive for one, but I AM really okay with a simple every day job life. I may regret this later on, but I honestly don't know how it feels to be working an everyday job majority of people complain about. Maybe its because they own a home, car, and bills that are needed to be paid off. And I as of now, do not have any of that to worry about. But for now, I will save up all my money that would be made. The only money that will be spent is for food and gas money. So honestly I don't mind making min. wage, I don't understand why most of the people I know with job always complain. You are making money be happy, compared to the rest of us. You guys just honestly don't understand what you're complaining about. Sometimes I wonder, who is in the rightful position to be complaining, them or I.

Well I feel better expressing myself. I think that's all I'm going to do with this post. Oh right, the title is due to that I'm working on a photo project involving vast continuums and they're so annoying ._.
So, I've been checking out this sexy ass babe. Her name is, Nikon D90 <3 I think I'll give her a nickname when I get my own. I shall name her "Picky-Clicky" But recently, I've been told to get other models and even brands. The Canon EOS 40D and Nikon D300(or was it D3000). Ugh, I've been debating recently and I've been tempted to get the EOS 40D for its fast frame per sec. shooting.

Have a nice day everyone :3 Take-E cares :)

2days until 2week anniversary of being the most luckiest guy :3

Oh when does the story continue?!

When I get better :P
Started to get a toothache now, eff my wisdom toofh yeah I spelt it like that >:0 Do something!

Head owie...

Yesterday:

I went to JFK to get Michelle at 11:40, because Chin told me that time. -.- But they actually get out at 12:40. So I got in-front of room 500 to wait for Michelle. When she came out she looked stunning with her matching grey outfit with her Hello Kitty necklace. Later on we got a ride from Chin Ming Lui. We got to our house fun fun. Got straight into playing super smash brothers brawl. Sergio came by later to play with us too :D
Later, Brian, Michelle, and I went to the mall. Because Brian wanted to play ID3 (initial D). Now he owes me $5 :D I played DDR for Michelle, but then my stupid heart condition came up. Gah screw you AVNRT :\ We went to Sanrio to look around then I saw some of my old friends. Danielle and Maria started to talk to me, and I introduced them to my girlfriend and my cousin. After we left I dropped Brian off, then I dropped Michelle off. I should of dropped Michelle off first because I didn't know she had to be home before 8:00PM. So I started to rush her home, and Brian would of loved the ride, lol. Thankfully I got her home in time. I called Michelle later that night just because I felt like talking to her, or maybe I just miss her too much. Hehe

Today: Just gonna stay home and relax a little. I don't even wanna blog right now ._. My head still hurts, so yeah. my blogs would be better if my head wasn't so owie right now.

BYE!

Cutting it short.

Still has big headache. Should be working on my "how to" paragraph -.- Happy Michelle has text again for sometime. Still going to be cautious and aware of her limited texting. Just noticed a hole in my sweats. Headache needs to recover so I can play Brawl with Daniel Husleman and Chin Ming Lui tomorrow. Debating on when to see Michelle.

And finally, missing Michelle...

The end

Sick...

Headache last night... Sleep all day... mediciene... i'm hot then im cold... too sick... don't wanna over do it...

Thank Qs for reading and Thank Ps for posting.

Living the sick day.

I like how I start all my blogs with waking up, because theres always to talk about something while embracing the new day. Well I woke up surprisingly early today. I woke up around ten-ish then I was like huh wow its so early, so I decided to pop back in bed. Few minutes later Michelle calls me and wakes me up. I had to apologize for my mumbling; lol. So I decided to go back to bed for a couple more hours because I set my alarm to wake me up at 12:30. Obviously I woke up many times before. And when I was getting ready, my alarm rings. I'm like okay, this is useless for now.

Got my parcel from the mail, received 3 lens caps. Canon branded, 55mm. And two 52mm caps. Hmm what else did I do at home... Shit why is it all fuzzy (no not in the cute way). Oh right I shaved; I hate shaving but it feels so good after. Lol.

Well anyways I got ready to go out to JFK to see Michelle and pick her up :) Was waiting by her locker and encountered Jon and fellows (LOL). So I talked to them for a bit, then Michelle called and we met up by her locker. Later, I've complimented on how she looked. She looked very pulchritudinous (ooo big word bitch! I can't even pronounce it LOLOL I FAIL!) AHAHA ANWYAYS! Yeah, she was wearing yellow stripes with grey and white; along with her dark navy blue jeans. Drove her almost home, first stopped by TapX and got my tapioca milk tea ! >:D So the one there is cheaper by $0.02 lol. We then later got into the car and I popped my straw in the drink. FUCKIN THING ERUPTED. Totally not worth the 2cents. ._.

When we arrived at her house, we just chilled as always. Her mom mad some kick ass Alfredo. Yum yum. Her mom also said, "I bought some soda downstairs too." I was like hm, is she doing this just for me? Later Michelle goes down and brings up 2 cups of soda. I was hoping it was sprite as well as her. But it ended up being...!! *DUM DUM DUM DUM DUM DUMMMMM* 7UP! Ewwwww! ;P Yeah I think 7up is the only soda I hate, I don't even think it should be a soda. Well ok I don't want to sound contradicting so whatever.

Later we took a nap-O on her bed-O. But I couldn't sleep so well her sisters are so loud. Then afterwords it got all hot...yeah...hot sounds right... LOLOLOL I mean literally.

Now I are home to be then posting are this with the very exceeding engrish of me's
TIME TO EAT!

Addition information:
-My throat hurts; no fast food ._.
-Going to the badminton game tomorrow.
-Needs to go find a darkroom for my photos to print.

Thank Qs for reading and Thank Ps for posting.

3.27.2010 (maybe if I type this enough i'll remember it lol)

Oh how daily..

Yup yup! Nothing much to talk about today folks! :0 I'm sorry to disappoint you. So in no chronological order these are the things I did...
Felt dirty so I took a shower. I feel super clean right now and I wanna go out, but its dark... oooooo I might see a ghost! (no not really).
I went on E-bay again and bidded (totally not a word but yeah) on 5 items! :0 Yeah I gotta stop this addiction... I won em :)
moms calling brb!
Apparently she needed help taking in the groceries. Her friend took her home and she is selling the SUV that she drove in. $22k, nice price but 4k mileage. AND ITS AN SUV; Eww. I told my parents if they buy me that car I'm going to travel the country, lol.
So where was I... Oh right Ebay. So yeah, I've won some stuff, and now I just have to wait for them to come in the mail :D
Didn't do much today, I was a little excited about hanging out with Michelle at the park/library. I woke up pretty late so I was wondering if we were still doing it or not. I decided to call her and check, but she didn't pick up. And later she calls back and told me we're not going to. Glad to hear her voice daily though.
Watched Avatar; Great movie. I would give it like 9/10. It was a very long movie... 2.5hrs.
And now I'm waiting for my noodles I made :D And I will be watching Clash Of The Titans in an hour or so.
OH MY GOD I AM HELLA CRAVING TAPIOCA MILK TEA RIGHT NOW ._. It's not even funny. I'm probably gonna get my hands on some tomorrow along with McD's saltiness fries >:D

So I will be going to see Michelle tomorrow, Yay! I'm on my spring break right now so I know almost nobody reads this, but if one of my acquaintance (I hate how I use this word so much yet I don't know how to spell it right without spell check) somehow cares about my life and reads this; lets chill...maybe...depends...who are you... LOL

::Additional Information::
-I finished my chocolate cake piece, oh god was it delicious.
-Wanting to play badminton.
-Might attend the next badminton game at JFK

Thanks Qs for reading, and thanks Ps for posting.

The date to remember : 3/27/2010

Alarm woke me up, oh what would I do without it. Got up, got ready to head off to Michelle's house. I felt like I wasn't driving with all my attention on the road. Which is bad; we know. But I felt like I was still half asleep. I brought some stuff over for her sister's to play with as long as my USB; pictures. I felt hungry soon later and decided to get McD. Michelle and I went there and went back to her house. So I fell asleep there few minutes after I ate. Then we talked a little.

I then asked her out, and she happily said yes while adding in some laughter. :)

I was on my way home, and decided I was a tad bit hungry. Well I was craving McD's fries. Apparently the one near Michelle's house is super salty which I love I guess. Haha. I brought it home, then I realized there was so much other food on the table. FOOD OVERLOAD! =) I was pretty glad I have so much to eat. I ate so much, I'm kind of feeling sleepy now.

::Additional information::
-Watched book of Eli; good movie
-Watched Gforce (don't know if I mentioned in my other post)
-Watched ponyo AGAIN, but with my mom.

Thank Qs for reading, thanks P for posting.

Balls...

Woke up to my broken alarm phone alarm. I didn't even know how I turned it off. Apparently I didn't because I just set it to snooze. -.- God damn it.

Sister came home, we decided to go eat at Boston Market to eat; better then sushi :3 Ewwwie. After we ate, headed to mail something for parents. Then after we went to get my sister's check. Got to her work, met her boss and other workers. Then the encounter with the kids, it wasn't as bad as my sister said it was. I guess she just doesn't like kids period... Lol. Took a lot of pictures of my sister working; even though she ruined some of the pictures by looking at the camera and making a weird face ._. The kids wanted me to take pictures of them, I said sure but later. I finished my roll of film, then I said I'll take pictures of them, Suckers :3

Thats about all I did today, didn't get good till we went outside to play. Thats when I started to get texts from Michelle :) As of now, she is watching a movie with her family. Thats cute, family bonding/get together time. I'm somewhat envious.

Yup.. Thats it.. I wanna go play starcraft 2 now; lol. So the end! :D

::Additional information::
-Mom bought me a chocolate cake piece from safeway for $0.99 and ate half of it :D
-Mom made me eggloos oh em gee, they're so good.
-Beat hella kids in connect 4.
-Fixed my blackberry curve ball.
-Will be going to Michelle's house tomorrow hopefully.

Thank Qs for reading, and thank P's for posting.

Time goes by...

Short blog, I don't really feel like blogging much. Maybe because I'm watching Supernatural.

Started my day off getting up and going on E-bay. Lol ._. Bidded on something, saw if I won anything. I actually bought something too, for a special someone. She's probably reading this and getting mad about it now. WHOPS! Teehee.

Played a game of starcraft 2 and yup I still got it; still slow. Got ready to head off, and started walking to JFK. Walked all the way there, and when I got there I called Michelle up. She tells me, she is in room 500. We then later decided to meet up by her locker. Once we did, we started to head out to the gym. The badminton game was being held there against Mission. When we got there I noticed many familiar faces, as well as some awkwardness. We sat down and I presented her with my necklace. She was very happy and stated that it was necessary for me to provide her with any gifts. I responded with that it wasn't much. I am pretty sure she was happy and excited with it. I just wanted her to have some things from me to remember me by if anything was to happen to me.

We watched the game and I met her friend, "Jessica". She was pretty cool I guess we didn't really talk much. The game was pretty boring for some reason... I don't think I am just into badminton anymore. Maybe it can be that I am just not on the team anymore. Well who knows, I feel like playing again though.

Eventually we left around 4:30 from the game, because it was very uninteresting. I got my father to come pick Michelle and I up. We went to my house, and went into my room for a bit (a long bit LOL). After that we decided to narrow down where we were going to eat, In and Out or Hi Seoul. So we went to Hi Seoul to eat, and I didn't like their spicy pork. :\ Tasted like hairballs... After that we went to Tapioca for a drink. I made Michelle choose a drink, and she choose wisely; Tapioca Milk Tea. Yum, She liked it as well which made me glad. After this event, I had to take her home.

Drove her home and encountered part of her family outside playing tennis. She hugged me in the car goodbye, and it was awkward with the parents D: after that I just drove home, didn't stay because it was already getting late.

Once I got home.. Uh what did I do when I get home.. LOL I'm brain dead, ok this ends that. The end have a nice day LOL

Additional information I didn't want to put in chronological order.
-I talked to Michelle few hours ago on AIM for the first time, as well as Jessica.
-STUPID PHONE IS BEING RETARDED

Thank Qs for readings; Thank P's for posting.

Karma will come, or it just tested me...

Ugh I hate waking up early! SWfjhsdklghaskdgh D: I'm going to try and to put my blog short. Woke up in the morning called Michelle to let her know if I was going to come by or not. I told her I wasn't able to. :\ How sad I know. Gah.

Got ready it was around 7:15AM And my ride; Assile. Was not picking up his phone nor was he near. I was in panic. I thought he forgot and started to head over to ohlone without me ._. Luckly he didn't, he later then came. I asked what took you so long and what not. He told me that he was watching the news for the health care thing. Wow man such a news guy. He's more intense then I am with the news lol.

OH SHIT I THINK THERES A GAME TRUCK TODAY AT OHLONE POST LATER!

Ugh nevermind it. I would of totally kicked anyone's ass in Super Smash Brothers Brawl. :3 Too bad I don't know where the stupid game truck is. Gah How can you operate a truck with games, lol. Pretty interesting. I would kick anyone's ass on any game I probably played. If not then I finally get competition.

Okay so I go to English class, it was decent. She was giving back our lab reports, or quizes. I got like 7/15 god, I hate these tricky ass test. After she discussed what we will be working on next. So I am going to need to start thinking how I am going to do this. This is going to be an paragraph about informing or "how to". I decided what I'm going to do; SLR camera. I will be writing about how to use a manual SLR camera :D She let us out one hour early.

I got so bored for an hour ugh. So I was walking about, wondering away. I went back and forth to my photo class to see if anyone was there, sadly no. Neither was the teacher so I was really bored. Then 30minutes I checked up again and I gave up and I sat down and went on my iTouch. Professor then arrived and asked if I wanted to get a head start, I'm like hell yea! :D So I was the first to start processing ;D until we got interrupted with a guest. So our class was "chosen" to do some sorta stupid survey ._. that killed like 30minutes of my time. So lame! All these questions really asked about was drug and alcohol use. And some depression and health issues. I marked almost like "No" Or "never". Then I went to finish procesing my film roll. After I threw it in the drier I went to print some pictures. I printed 2-3, then I ran back into the room to get my negatives, and started working on those. Made a contact sheet and few prints. After that it was time to clean up, but due to the survey we had extra time. I spent that extra hour printing only 1 picture it was so frustraiting. I was printing a picture of Michelle's little sister. Her white shirt I guess was blending in with the background so I couldn't make it as dark. I made like 4 prints but only 1 came out good, BUT its not good enough. I'm not happy with it. I think i'll give the other 3 prints to Michelle's mom or something. My classmates were drying the prints. They made a remark, "Oh my god this girl is going to be in my nightmares so many pictures of her!" And there was only like 12prints and four of them are of her. I found that pretty funny haha.

Even though I didn't see that special someone today, I will always find another way to see her. Today, I saw her through my work and prints.

I also bumped into my childhood friend. I know him from, my dad. It's my dad's friend's son. And I haven't seen him in years! He totally looks different. Usually I would be too shy to talk to him, but now its like whoa! Hahaha. Times just get to us sometimes... *sigh*

So right now I am posting this because when I get home I will either be texting or working on my English homework. I probably won't be posting/editing this. I also got like 5 asian guys around me playing "DOTA" hahaha... I don't get this game ._. Well take care and what not. Have a nice day and all!

You get caught up in dress codes, and I'll shop at walmart.

Things I Forget...

So apparently I left out somethings in the past post.

-I forgot to mention March 22, 2010 I kissed her cheek shyly :X
- Forgotten to mention 3/23/2010 We took a walk after eating (recalled after reading Michelle's blog).

How guilty...

March 23, 2010

Stupid alarm woke me up at 6AM this morning. I don't even know why I.. oh wait right. So I set my alarm on for 6AM so I can call up Michelle. I think I told her that I am going to go see her today, I Don't know if she got the message. I think I will call her back again at her lunch break.
So I set my alarm for another hour to wake up, because I had an appointment to attend to. My appointment was with the counsler was at 11:00AM. I couldn't and had a hard time waking up but thankfully Jessica was constantly texting me. So my phone constistantly vibrated after every minute. This got me into the habit of waking up.

When I was ready to get up. I got ready to go to Ohlone, Yeah! (no not really). I still feel guilty and worry about my gas for my car. Oh right, I need to take a roll of pictures to develop tomorrow ugh...

(so I got this guy infront of me, I think name Bo? talking about some game, and I'm hella curious what game he is talking about. Also how can he have time for games and school god damn this asian is totally smart.)

Anyways I talked to the counsler she helped me out with some stuff and yeah talked to me. I felt really comfortable talking to her. I'm wondering if I need to talk to any other coulsers soon or what not. I like to stick with one and familiarize myself with them. (that reminds me I have to go drop my class right now. Actually I'm going to do that right now and put my post on hold.)

Now thats over with I checked my email and what not. I just received a mail from the person who I ordered my badminton grip tape from. He was like, "The picture is there what made you think it was 3 packs?" When I get home I'm going to reply and be like "Well your fuckin title said it was 3 pack duh stupid ass!" (well without the rudeness of course.)

So I went to the car to chill because I can blast my music all I want. Then it got so hot so I decided someone could use my parking spot and have better use then I do. So I parked somewhere far away with the shade it was a bit cooler then a wasp almost came in my window. I rolled it up and it got burning hot again ._." I decided to go to 7/11 and get something to drink, maybe it'll cool me down. I started to drink it and I got a stomachache when I reached my destination.

I got to the gas station near JFK and put $20.00 worth of gas in my car. I got half of my tank filled which I was pretty happy with :D After that I drove infront of Kennedy with all the houses and parked infront of some person's house. I was waiting for Michelle to finish class, but I got her text saying that she might not be around after school. I got kinda upset, I mean I wanted today to be with me and her. So I texted her back and told her to call me and let me know what was going on. She did, she told me she had a headache and I offered to give her a ride home sooner then later if she wanted. She confirmed with her mother and so it was that.

On the way home I gave her my bracelet I made. I kinda liked it to a point where I wanted to keep it, but then that does not justify why I wanted to make it in the first place. I believe Michelle loved it, and was about to hug me. I was driving so she receded it I guess. Which was good, it would of been problematic if she did proceed.

I got her home asap; not speeding. Reached the front of her house and her mom was in the car. She discussed something with her mom, and I went back to my car to get my digi-cam(I just went to my car and got it too lol). After that we went up and into her room just took some pictures I will have to await consent from Michelle to post them. After that we were just on her bed holding each other for awhile. When her mom came home with her sisters, they also brought back some food. As shy as Michelle is eating in-front of people, She tried hard to eat in-front of me. Which was good, but she still had trouble.

While we were eating, her little sisters totally wanted to play with the itouch. Next time I don't think I'm going to be bringing it, lol. As mean as it sounds, I think I rather have functioning one then none at all. Now they're both mean to me ._. I think its because I don't let them play with my iTouch. Ugh Idk anymore I tried to be nice, I think I should just ignore them now. But taht's too mean! I took lots of pictures of them, I don't even know what I'll do with them lmao.

After that we went inside, I let the little ones play with the itouch for 4 minutes and went on to 6 instead. Then after, Michelle kicked them out. I don't think I would be able to handle them either for too long, now that they hate me D: We were on the bed some more, just held each other and chatted. We talked about many things, few that I cannot remember. The highlights were of the situation we are in, and the consents we are needed of. I already got Jon's consent if it was okay, and he said yes. Now we are awaiting the other. I also talked about my past, she talked about hers. Since she didn't have a long high school past, I made her talk about her and guys. Which I ended up talking about me and girls too.

The end of the day was triple X rated! :0 LOL jk jk not really. But yeah, it was just too hard to part. She walked me to my car and I let her borrow my jacket once more.

Ok this had to have its own space. So I found two things that were hella ironic. Michelle and I love the same soda, and hate the same soda. The other thing that I would like to point out is that, I started the day posting this blog around 11AM~ with the title "guilty". And now, when I was leaving, her mom told Michelle to give me a $20 for gas ._. So more of me to feel guilty for! Great! Now I feel like asking her mom, "Where does those two other girls go?" "So I can pick the up."

Thats about it, I have to shower and eat. Ugh first thing I did was blog and go on facebook, what is the world coming to putting these as highest priority.

What is that recall?!

Guess what?! I got my photo papers back! Whoohoo! Oh well before I get to that let me go on throughout in a chronological order.

*note* I will not as detailed. I am currently in Hyman Hall and too many people are socializing making it hard to concentrate.

Morning, FML I hardly slept last night... I was thinking who stole my photo papers, and why if it had my name on it. So I woke up not too long after as my phone started to vibrate. I set my phone on vibrate 3 times before it starts ringing to Late Night Alumni. I have a thing for my phone ringing in the morning so I try to find my phone before the 3rd vibrating. Usually I find it on the first or second vibration. Today, I hardly got it, but I did. Got it before it started to sing. 5minutes or 10minutes after I woke up I was debating if I should call Michelle. I then decided to call her, even though I was a tad intimidated of what I may say. We talked for a brief moment then I let her go to finish straightening her hair. I don't really like talking on the phone as much, neither does she. But it was taken into consideration that I wanted to start off her day good and with a smile.

So after I got up off bed started to change and then I started to feel sick. So I went to school a lil later, as I was supposed to be there quite early to finish my English homework. I arrived at Ohlone College around 7:30AM so I had a little hard time with parking. I didn't park as far but it was decent. I am really paranoid about my gas all of a sudden I wonder why... Hehe. I haven't even read the essay that was supposed to be read for the prompt today. So we had to write about what was the author's thesis and three supportive details. I quickly read through it and hopefully I didn't get a bad grade on it. I write like 10-12sentences which was the requirement. I felt a little bad about it though at the same time, because I should of read it a few days before. I threw away 2 papers because I didn't feel as if those were grammatically correct and I made a lot of errors. I just need a neat paper without any errors so I guess you can call those my rough draft, but again we were not supposed to have any.

After English, I shivered over to the bookstore to get some PB&J. Yet again in my disappointment they were sold out. They're pretty expensive ($1.25) but why are they so good?!

Made my way over to to photo lab depressed because I didn't want to think about my photo papers. But I had to go to it, got critiqued with my pictures. Apparently the teacher does not like my picture of my place. I don't know what his reason was but I liked it. :\ But he's the teacher! He liked my self portrait picture the most due to the contrast of the picture. He also stated the separation of the mirrors that I didn't really notice, until he brought it up. Many of the students like the light bulb picture I shot with my zoom lens. I probably should not of mentioned it because he said specifically use 55mm lens. I just cannot handle that, haha. Right before we started to critique I asked him if he see's any box of photo paper with the name "Will Gow" On it let me know. He's like as a matter of fact I actually have it in my office. I'm like womgwtfbbq REALLY?! :D I was so happy! I didn't need to buy another set of photo papers! This totally made my day! I'm so happy now!

We ended class early around 12:00 so now I'm so bored right now waiting for kennedy to get out so I can pick up Michelle. But its not all that bad because I'm here in Hyman Hall with Regina, the cool cat.

(Totally unrelated but there is an annoying ass girl next to me talking. She talks about how she doesn't remember of her day because she was so drunk... Seriously? Then why are you even still talking damn... Stfu! :D)

I will post more maybe later; after my day with the special someone. :)

Lets begin! I'm going to try putting it short, I have some homework I remembered to do.

Continuing from leaving Hyman Hall. Regina and I started to walk towards our cars. She tailgated me to my house. Went inside got my camera, and we headed over to Kennedy. Saw A LOT of familiar faces; glad to see them. The most that made an impact on me was Annie, she like jumped attacked, hugged me or something. Throughout this weird greeting I was worried of my camera and what Michelle may be thinking of this... Then after the weird delightful greeting we went off to my car. Michelle and I were thinking of what to do hmm... In that moment I complimented that it was cold today, and why she wasn't shorts. Hehe. We went to the New Park Mall afterwords; to walk around. We stopped by many stores, I would say I liked Forever 21 (jackets) the most and Sanrio. I was really debating to get her something from Sanrio, but so expensive! Yet again half the time I was thinking of my gas, lol. Some how its sad to say, but maybe my gift to her can just be all the times I come to see her. Even though that sounds kinda selfish. :\ Yeah, I just made myself sound like a jerk.

Anyways! after the mall I decided I was hungry. D: We were about to turn back and get seribol(SP?) but then I didn't wanna walk all the way back. We then decided to get In and Out. I drove all the way there and we ate outside in the nice windy weather haha. Fed some birds our fries because it would be cannibalism for them to eat a cow. I also fed some of my burger to Michelle, I'm glad she enjoyed it. I learned something new, that she cannot have cheese. Lets hope I remember that.

After the wonderful meal we started to head over to Michelle's house. Once we arrived there, we just went straight to her room. We chilled there for a good hmmm I don't know ~2 hours? She said she wanted to take some pictures, so I'm like okay. So we did take a few. I don't know how they came out because she told me not to look at them so I complied to her request. Her little sisters were playing with my itouch and they seemed to really enjoy it too.

It was time for me to depart so I was handed my jacket back awhile back. And now I lent her another of my jacket she requested. She said she liked that one better, I don't believe her. My purple was was the coolest 8) Hahaha. So I wore the one she gave me back till I got home. Then I noticed that it smelled like her; Michelle. What a lovely girl scent to have. Too bad it will eventually disappear :[

I came home received 3 packages in the mail. My dad seemed to be grumpy at me for ordering so much online. I will name them, but not so detailed. Hello Kitty thing, Badminton tape, and more photo paper :D

I should go to sleep I got to shoot some pictures tomorrow. Seeing how the day may turn out tomorrow, I may or may not blog about it. If I do, it may not be so discrete.

Thank Qs for reading, Thank P for posting ;D

Homework means less to rant about

March 21, 2010

Hey! I didn't type 2009 and delete it this time! I'm getting the hang of it. Beautiful weather this afternoon if I do say myself. This is not going to be a long post. I have homework to do, then to be posting. Besides I'm going to stay home all day occupy myself with those social network sites. So this is going to be a short one. I'm off to submit my Photo homework, then start English homework. Ugh, Man these birds are chirping so annoyingly I just wanna shoot them. Well up until I see them, then I'll be like "aww" And probably will reconsider. Those last sentence was totally not necessary nor is this to cover up my last one, lol.

Anyways! Had a terrible wake up, hate it when cousin sleeps over. He always leaves early in which disrupting my sleep. I'm no much fan of text sleeping either, but I do it just for Michelle. I eventually told her how to decode my secretly hidden messages in my blog recently. She posted it on her blog site which can be found here. I wonder if any of you could figure it out without my help :P But you already have the answers, all you have to do is look how it was formed.

I'm ending this with talking a little more about my happiness. As I was stating I was waking up reading Michelle's text messages. When I decided to wake up finally and get off my luring sleepy bed; I started the computer. Brushed my teeth while it was loading up, took a stand in-front of the toilet (too much information? LOL). Anyways! When my computer loaded up the first thing was click all my bookmarks and made them into tabs. My bookmarked tabs are; Facebook, Myspace, Email, Ebay, Vox, Michelle's formspring, and Michelle's blogspot. Youtube as well, but I did not need that just yet. I was then reading Michelle's post on both her accounted sites. I was really glad of all the positive and cute things she said in her posts. It made me feel good, like really good. If I read this while I was half asleep, I think it would of woken me up so quickly. :)

So I am hoping the rest of the day, I will be texting with Michelle. Her through Yahoo, Me, through my phone. Because she found a genius way not to go over her texting limit.

Ok, I'm ending it here for reals this time. I have food next to me, and I need to submit my homework and get started with Engrish homework. I probably won't update this particular dated blog because I think I wrote most of whats in store.

Have a wonderful day! Go outside and play if you haven't procrastinated with homework like some of us!

Oh one more thing I forgot to mention if neccessary. I feel sick/allergies! D: Whyyyy... ( I would/should ranted about this.)

The start of an end...? Or the end of a start...?

March 20, 2010

I REALLY WANT TO TAKE THE TIME TO THANK ANYONE WHO READS MY POST. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT, I MEAN IT YOU GUYS! (Smiley face) So, I Woke up in the morning feeling like P Diddy (Sp?) Hah, yeah right ._. I don't even know how you can wake up and feel like him. I didn't know he was an emotion

Made the record of going to sleep at 3:00 ._. Still doing bad, at least not as worse by 30 minutes. As always, I start to think of the day went. I started to miss a certain someone already, so I decided to prepare a text for her in the morning. Knowing I will not be able to text her as much anymore, really makes me want her more :\ And these songs I'm listening to doesn't help! Argh...

I then woke up to her text in the morning asking about my AIM. I then sent her the prepared text I saved from last night. Afterwords it killed my word of only going to text her twice; not good.

So now I have to go online and internet stalk some more and find her information on what her AIM is, I'm pretty sure its mentioned someone. :) I'm just that good at doing research.

She has around 427 text messages that's been used with me. I have some sense in that, she may have used some on other people that does not have Verizon. So I am really concerned. I think I'm just going to go over my cousins house soon just to get his phone to text her. :)

Yup, got some plans for today. Maybe I should start preparing rather then sitting in front of my computer posting this hm?

On the other hand I have no idea what I will do after I get ready, lol. This is why I should plan these things out right now! D: I'm so in a rush because its 1:08 right now and I feel like I slept my morning away.. well which I did.

Understanding what I have done, I may learn from it... Nah I don't think so I've been doing this sense forever. I only wake up early when I'm forced to such as school. :\

Maybe I will post more later, This is the end of my story for now.

I am here right now posting at my cousin's house; hardly come here anymore. So lets get this started.

Commonly I would like to see Michelle more if possible; many times. But then again, I would hope I am not coming on too clingy for her... So today I didn't think much of it, and just decided to go to over her house.

Hell with this I cannot use a mac book! Im going to post more later when I get home...

Eventually I am home now and lets talk about the day, now where was I? Oh right, I drove over to her house. On the way there I was messing with the GPS not knowing which way to go because apparently I got on the freeway again. It was so scary.. I hate the freeways :\

Later, I arrive at her house and called her. Michelle then comes out from the garage impatiently it seemed. She then approaches me with wet hair black shirt and sweats. I hug her, as I really missed her, but also with suspicion. I was unaware if her parents were around, because I am really uncomfortable with showing affection around parents. Other then that I'm completely all about PDA. XD We stayed around her porch and just chilled. I brought up my gift for her, it was a hello kitty bracelet I ordered online. She said she really liked it and she gave me an affectionate hug. Which I really enjoyed; as I do with all her other hugs. She then later accidentally broke the bracelet I got her, I understand it was from China after all. Ugh. But its okay! Because I fixed it and delicately put it back onto her wrist :)

Luckily one of her sister likes me. I guess she had to take care of her sister's and I engaged in it too; too much. One of her sister I guess really hates me, and the other one, "Chloe"(SP) loves me :D She's so nice :) I was thinking about giving her my pez toy penguin. They're fun to play with, especially the one that loves me ;D

Even though staying around the porch was fine; we went to my car. We just listened to some more music, because she wanted to say what I labeled as crazy music. In all due honesty, I don't believe she enjoys it as I do. That's okay though, too much of it gets repeating with beats anyways.

! After we decided to go around her house. We ended up going to my Grandpa's grave; just for a visit. Not long after that we went to get Q-Cup. I ordered a Green Apple Icee w/ Lychee. She tried it and I would say she liked it, But I really don't know if its a lie or not. I'm not able to tell just yet. After that we went around the Lion Market; Asian super market area; Not much to talk about here. Just mommy and daddy browsing. Hahaha.

Departing from the Asian Market she was supposed to go to the park to meet up with her family. Now this, was the most confusing part of my day. Going through weird neighborhoods; gah waste of gas. It was okay though I suppose. As long as it wasn't totally far and then back.

Safely getting there, we searched for her family. They were right (more like left) near us, and I didn't even notice. I felt so embarrassed :\ So I greeted the parents, dad asked me a few questions. No biggie though. We then decided to walk around, eventually ended up sitting down instead. We sat, and just discussed about some situations and get to know each other better. Some personal conversations as well; until intruded on. It wasn't a big deal either, I enjoyed her cousin and sister's company. All we had were small talks and how much her cousin wanted Mc Donalds. When I had to depart from Michelle's grace, she seemed cold. I offered her to wear my favorite orchard colored jacket that my sister bought me. She refused at first, but I insisted and told her I will retrieve it eventually. It then slipped her mouth and said it was warm. Made me feel good that in some way I could keep her warm inside and outside. hehe.

After I departed nothing interesting after that. Apparently went about the same way home as last time, through the freeway. Ended up in auto mall, decided to get In and Out burgers :) Yum! Ate it at my cousin's house. She was hosting a party but it started at 10:00 and me and a few other people agreed there was no good looking people going. So we decided to leave early/not show up, haha. I dropped in! So you can't say I'm a bad cousin. :D I Just can't handle my cousin as much anymore, she just seems so into what shes doing and not treat others with respect. If she was to read this, she'll probably throw a fit. But really, if you're dedicated on this party, you would of done everything yourself and not get your little brother to help you as much. Maybe I don't know the situation, but you planned ahead a week inviting people, yet you still needed last second helps.

I decided to kidnap my cousin, Brian. He is right as of now sleeping, such a lazy. Lol. He sleeps so early... I should learn from him. Oh right, another package came in the mail (2 actually). One was my dad's order that he won on ebay, the other was my lens cap for my SLR cameras.

Summary : Overall my day was good, I enjoyed it a lot. Downside is the area in which I have to go to visit Michelle. I spent most of my day gladly with her. Stopped by my cousins house to say happy belated bday (she didn't even say it to me so much for respecting your elders even though I'm only 1 week older then her). Took her little brother (my cousin) to my house and hes sleeping over and I'm writing this. I'm also awaiting for Michelle's text messages. I am hoping I will be texting her all night until she falls asleep. I think I'm the one thats going to fall asleep first, I have a sense that I cannot wake up when I'm already half asleep. I hate it. I just want to use my cousin's phone to my advantage.

I hope everyone's day went well, if not there's always the rest of your life.

The lost of the photo papers.

March 19 2010

I almost wrote 2009 ._. Just not used to it not having two 0's after the two. I went to sleep around 3:30 last night unable to sleep with my bad sleeping habits. My alarm woke me up this morning around 6, because I set it to do so duh. I was going to text someone around this time, but I was just way too sleepy. In the sense of me going to text her, she texts me 30~minutes later. I was glad she did, and I woke up to her text and also my mom was awake too. So here I was early birdy, getting ready to go to photo class and print pictures. Positive can do attitude!

Lazily, I started to research how to dry fiber-based photo paper on google. One site I found in particular said to get some photo tape, which I never heard of. So I did some searches on that as well. Overall, I started to get built up on purchasing this tape at Michales (I hate spelling that name). I arrive around 8:45 and they tell me they don't open until 9:00. What the fuck, seriously? It's just 15minutes left, are you really going to tell me that... Well they did, they lost themselves a customer for the day. This is why your business sucks.

I was a tad bit early, went to the library and turned in my book. Soon after I went to one of the open computers to finish my assignment for photo that will be due Sunday midnight. Eventually I finished that assignment; too fast. I was hungry and I went to the bookstore to get some PB&J. Sadly enough to find there were no more left. ._. Made my day a little worse.

Killing some the time before photo class, getting hyped up and some of my classmates were there as well. I signed into class, went straight for my prints. I found them, Yay! But I couldn't find a my negatives, so I was very disappointed. Who would want to take my negatives?! Are they that good? Then later I found out my photo papers are missing from my drawer. There are about 80~ unused sheets. That's like losing a good fucking $50.00. Shit, seriously fuckin' don't be pulling this stealing crap. I'm so frustrated with some of those bad apples in life that continue to grow, and not get thrown down the grave. I'm sorry but its true. I decided to go home...

Eventually, I arrive at home and told my dad about it. Like always he doesn't show any fucking sympathy. Some father he is, he just throws my guilt and shit at me. As he was telling me how irresponsible I was, I started to walk into my room and slam my door. To make it even worse, he comes in my room asking if I lost his dad's camera too ._. what the fuck... I just wanna get out right now...

You would think I was harsh... I got out of the house away from my dad. >.> Went out with my sister to eat pho. It was pretty good besides that I don't think I finished some of it. :\ Went to Miachels to buy photo tape but instead came out with a picture frame. Time to frame a good picture! :D Or give it to someone as a present :)

I am just hoping that the rest of the day goes well... Especially with hanging out with Michelle later today after her school ends.

Outside was so burning hot! As I arrive at my old high school; John F Kennedy. I started to wait and text Michelle of meeting her up. While awaiting her reply in the blazing heat, my pants started to feel hot and I started to break a sweat. I was not even doing anything! Oh man, weathers getting to me all of a sudden. Got to see my buddy Regina, that crazy girl still the same, hope to see her again soon. I also noticed there was many little kids driving all of a sudden. Makes me a little paranoid on how teenagers these days. And the DMV that are oblivious to amount of teenagers driving, especially kennedy's.

Under the heat, I started walking to the library. I then encounter Ryan Ramos a senior now. I decided to wave and give him a greeting. Without me wearing my glasses, I noticed a girl walking to the way Ryan was ejecting from. I, myself would of obviously not notice who she was, until I got closer. I was pretty sure it was Michelle, and to my surprise it was her. I didn't even have to meet up with her infront/in the library after all. She doesn't seem like the same girl I noticed back when I was a senior. Maybe it was just because she was always with her little friend. Maybe it seemed like she had better people to talk to back then, rather then me. So I guess that's why I probably never approached her; let alone being shy (okay, whoa, going on about this too much).

Michelle and I started to walk and eventually we got to my car. After being loaded into the car, we started to burn up. :( Not that funnest thing, especially me being paranoid of how this may impact how she sees me. We had to wait till my GPS loaded up, after that I inserted her house as the destination. It was fun talking to her in the car, too bad my eyes had to be focused on the road. During stop lights, I would look over to see how she was doing. I worry she would be bored, or too hot. I wouldn't want that; neither would I want her to notice me glancing at her every time I could in the car. Blue top, blue jeans shorts, and her shoes with pink laces. How could one not admire grace.

I drove to her rich community of houses, I felt relieved we were almost there. Duly noted that her mom was not home. We sat in my car just listening to music and talking; I enjoyed every moment of it. Just having her in my presence was exhilarating; every moment of being ecstatic. Time eventually flew by so fast that neither Michelle nor I noticed her mom pulling into the drive way. When I did, I told her and she left the car to check in with her mom. Just when I was playing a song we both enjoy; Owl City - Saltwater Room.

Casually, we got into her house. I had to meet some of the family members; how nerve racking... Took off our shoes and headed upstairs, next meeting her sister. Getting that over with (phew) we headed to her room to just chill. We talked, I went through her algebra 2 book; ugh I hate it. After that, we just sat around the computer. I was showing her many of my favorites on youtube along with a few of my very own videos. Her mom later calls asking what we would like to eat...? She bought stuff from Sogo's Bakery. I guess I was a little hungry, I forgot to drink the drink that was offered though! Dang it! Oh well. I hope they didn't take it offensive nor throw it away wastefully.

Horrifically as this may sound the best part was leaving. It was also the worst part. Hmm which to start with the negative or the positive. I guess negative because that's how the number line goes. Well it was the worst part because I was leaving, obviously right? And of course I wish I could of stayed there for longer, with Michelle. It was the best part because I got to hug her for quite some time. I enjoyed her extended hug time. I felt as if I never wanted to let go, as a kid departing with their favorite toy. Well, I'm pretty sure she will be reading this soon.

Even with so many similarities, I can't seem to express the limit we have in common. I can't tell neither if its a good thing or a bad thing... Or is there more.

Luckily this post is ending by saying, my day was "okay".

Losing the photo paper and my negative sheets were the worst part. Which leads up to my dad lecturing which making my day worse.

Exciting day, I drove back on the freeway... Shhh. I kinda enjoyed it because there was some traffic. Which signals that I do not have to be speedy drove around 40-50mph.