Family can also make you sad.

So few days ago, I went upstairs wanting to shoot some pictures of my aunt, uncle, and grandma. I couldn't find an excuse, eventually I did. I went upstairs to get the mail and package for my sister. So I went up with my film camera, sadly I only got two shots. They didn't want me taking pictures of them, because they were playing blackjack. They fear that it is illegal to gamble with quarters amongst family. I don't think its illegal is it? As of now I still want to, thinking of the worst to come. I want to remember my family if anything bad happens to them or me. Apparently that's not going to happen, as I type this I am getting emotional. I have regrets of not knowing my grandpa better or having any memories of him. The only memory I have of him is yelling at me to not jump around the house, such as stairs or from the couch to the floor. I have around 20 shots left in my film, I'm hoping to complete by tomorrow. One day maybe, they will realize how much they mean to me. Even though I look as I isolate myself from them. I just don't like talking about futuristic things.

That's all I like to blog about for today ._.

Day two of the college life.

Not much to talk about just wanted to state the introduction that happened in digital photo class. So we were all introducing ourselves, before Mr Mueller got to me, he started to tell people to name the books we last read. Beat me to it dang... Well I introduced myself eventually and said I took photo at Ohlone and this is my second semester and how I had to withdraw from the class because of a job opportunity. I finished, and Mr. Mueller said, "A good photographer at that." Made me very ecstatic! :D Too overdosed with joy I forgot to say, "Thank you." What jerk I am.

And beginning of the day was a bad start my dad yelled at me because I was lagging behind and he didnt want to be late. So now im debating on dropping English so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore. Bleh...

RE-First Day Of College

Going back to college... Yeah I couldn't sleep all night. I couldn't tell if it was the anxiety or excitement. I would like blame majority of it on anxiety. I slept early so it was a good start. But I also knew this was problematic. Usually when I sleep early then normal time, I wake up too early. In this scenario, I went to sleep at 9 woke up at 12. I decided that if I didn't sleep within 5 minutes I would go eat. So I got up and ate a burger and a hot dog. Damn, I'm fat... When I finally got to sleep my alarm disturbingly woke me ._. Scarcely I woken up.

Got ready then I took my dad to his friends house so I can take the car. I got to school soon after one hour early and scouted my class. So I had some free time so I thuoght I would look for my digital photo class as well. So I did and couldnt find it.

OH SHIT I SHOULD LOOK FOR MY ADOBE PHOTO SHOP RIGHT NOW INSTEAD OF POSTING THIS! SHIT POST MORE LATER T.T


Just to make it short before I forget just gonna add some notes in here.
-Car keys wouldnt come out
-Photography Teacher
-JFK students
-Probation

PS I NEED TO PEE

I lied I dont wanna post anymore. I'll just clarify what I was gonna say within the list.
So Yeah, I got to Ohlone I forgot to put the gear to Park so I couldnt pull out the keys ._. Im so stupid. I thought it was just my dad's keys that were screwed up. Took me so long to get those keys out im so stupid...

First class was English. I met some guy that was on probation. I have no idea what that is to be honest. So I kinda questioned him and what not. Awkward... XD

So I saw my photo professor again! Yay! I miss photo class! I also noticed some students were from JFK taking digital photo as well. So I went into his digital photo class, after class I walked out. Then I wanted to go back to have a little chitchat with him. Soon after the chat he invited me to his "Dream Team" of enthusiast photographers. I of course accepted. 6:00PM soon arrived and I saw two of my best buddies there, Ahn and Teresa! :]

Started watching a new anime/cartoon.

Yeah, I was so bored today... I started watching Dragon Ball Z ._. Yep Im still on it. Im on like episode 48? And theres like 200 more to go.. Well better get going ;D Last week of break till school starts again D:

So full...

I ate more then I usually ever eat in a restaurant(unrelated but I totally been spelling this word wrong even with auto correct)... Larry, my sister, and I ate at Red Robins today. I ordered the BBQ chicken Salad with unlim fries. Usually I never take adv. of that because I cant finish it and it becomes a togo box. For once I actually got a refill and finished everything. Ugh so crazy.

Went inline skating with my sister at Lake Elizabeth for an hour and she almost fell... Damn I was so hoping for her to drop her phone...

Yeah I didnt eat since then and now I just wanna enjoy my turkey ham-mich with Cherry Soda, kthxbai.

PS. TO THE WORLD.. Why do you make bread square shape and everything else is like circle... seriously... start making circle ham and turkey. Im so sick of biting the sides and eating nothing but bread. OR EVEN MAKE CIRCLE BREAD Just dont... reverse it... Theres no point in having circle bread and square meat...

Missing Childhood

So this morning, my mom asked if I wanted to drink hot coco. I said sure, and guess what I never got it, and now shes at work... QQ Oh well. I guess it is my fault, I distracted her and asked her to help me make pancakes. She just showed me where the vegetable oil was I did the rest. So yeah! I made like 4 pancakes! and two of them were burnt ._. Then my mom was like you can make two more, I'm like nooo I only have room for one left. My mom proved me wrong and made one big one instead.

While it was around 11 I was wondering huh... Why does it feel like its 2-3... Maybe because I cooked and did something productive. Well who knows. But finally its almost three. Don't get me wrong I dont want time to go by fast, its just my thought.
Seeing that it is almost 3:00PM I started to think about Jr high and High school freshman years. Where I walk home from school and watch Cartoons with some food and probably a soda knowing me. Oh how I miss those times! I don't even think they show cartoons at this time anymore...

My fuckin' motivation right here...

Nightmares and.. well nightmares.

Ok for the past two days I've been having nightmares and ruining my sleep... fckin demonic, white eyed little girls gotta leave me alone! ._.

So theres like nothing to eat in the house... I feel too awkward to go out and buy groceries... I feel like only old people do that AHA But I will eventually come around... Im actually gonna go buy some today because I cant stand not having anything to eat in the house...

There were so many other things I wanted to rant about, but I forget... Well once it comes back to me it'll be here, re-edited.

I can't wait!

Few things I want to rant about. Dances are good only when the dancer has confidence even as bad as the dance is. Speaking of dance, playing Just Dance on the wii yesterday with my little cousins, SHOOPUFF I'm sore as hellos today!

GAH! I can't wait for this game to finish downloading so I can play it on my Wii! :] I"ve been downloading it for 10hrs~ and theres only 20 minutes left! I think i'll go take a shower while waiting. And posting this may kill some more time :D

I got my cousin's late xmas present in the mail today, his camera lens. Oh yeah... And my mommy started her new job today :3 IM GONNA BE HUNGRY NUUU!!! I should go grocery shopping for myself >:]

That is all.

Losing is fun.

Yeah I said it, losing can be fun. Too often I win at the games I play, So sometimes here and there I'll try doing something stupid that can end up being epic win or just losing. But I dont care. My cousin and I were playing smash brothers melee and I just lost some match because I was enjoying myself more. I forget how to have fun sometimes and focus on the winning ._. bad bad bad think that'll be one of my goals for 2011 play for fun, lose for fun, and win for nothing.

So this morning I got some McD breakfast. I ate a hashbrown and their new oatmeal. Their new oatmeal is very filling. Too bad I couldn't finish it and gave it to my dad. The apples are very sour in the oatmeal too :3 Im usually buying coffee for my dad but this time I was like Im gonna buy a Iced Mocha for myself, yeah! Then when I got home and drank it, It tasted bitter... So once again I gave it to my dad...

Damn today was a long ass day! Maybe because I woke up at 7 and stayed up and haven't took a nap yet. Ending it here even though the day hasn't ended! I wanna go exercise some more :] Peas!

I don't understand...

How can I go to sleep at 10PM and wake up at 3AM ._. Why won't my body/mind let me sleep at least till the sun came up :\
/end rant

Went to Daniels house today and didnt get my book QQ played Blublaze or Blazeblue whatever... Pretty cool game, but still seems complex aha. Exercised pretty hard there and back crazyness ;D

Got an Email about someone wanting to buy a skateboard :D Hopefully I can sell it.

Ecstatic!

Wooo I spent $105 today!

So as of morning today, I got my daddy some McD breakfast and myself some too. Oh god, I hated chipping the ice off the car window ._. Took me like 15mins but it was a good experience nevertheless.

Went to sleep soon after, then stupid Alec calling me waking me up like he somebody... Ignored it and went back to sleep. Sister woke me up too, stupid jerk ._. I never wake her up! Next time I will...

Met up with some guy selling a camera backpack. Bought it off him for $80 :D I kinda regret it now, because its not the newer version...Well whatever. Im happy I have a backpack for my camera now :D

Soon later I go to meet up with another person selling something I wanted. I will be putting it to use on Friday with my friend Michelle (oh man that felt weird typing that LOL)

My day today

Okay, lets just start it off from the beginning... Er I dont know when that is because I didnt sleep.. HAH!
Okay well my mom bought popeyes chicken, then I slept after. Soon later I had a nightmare of a ghost coming up my bed and blankets... So horrid...

Woke up, looked for a camera backpack on Craigslist and the one I wanted was sold :[ It was first $150 then lowered to $135 and now its gone... damn...

I should be making my appointment for my hepatitis shot part two ._. bleh. Thats basically my whole day... I should be hanging out with Daniel soon though ._. I feel so bad for leaving him hanging like the past two days.

Oh and there is milk in the frig that I should probably drink a glass of to accomplish one of my new years goals... BUT ITS SO WHITE!!! EWW!

Such a sleepful day...

Yeah not the best day today. I didn't sleep till 6AM, and when I woke up at 4PM I went back to sleep around 7PM and I just woke up now ._. Oh god, This is so bad... Not much to talk about since I did sleep the whole day.

On the other side of things, I just found out my cousin Eileen actually reads/follows this blog. Makes me feel better knowing one more person cares, well in the family anyways.

I loved talking to Michelle about photography, anyone really as long as they know noting of it. If they knew better than I, then its a little awkward :[

So some person name Liz wanted to buy my iTouch, but she hasnt responded back :\ Another thing is that I found someone to buy an English book from. We will be meeting up at Borders in the Fremont Hub, at 1:00PM. So if I go missing or I die you guys have the right to catch those people x] Damn am I over dramatic...

Recap and new caps

Ugh, 3:30AM I slept for two hours. I felt super sleepy but now, after two hours of sleep its gone? Geez, I thought I'd sleep in until afternoon at least, so much for that.

As blogger is only for my own personal history and those who want to intervene in my life, I will post for my own benefactors.

12.31.2010
Girlfriend and I broke up, but not yet parted. M and W just noticed one of us being upside down for the other, cannot last forever.

...I just drank my last Cocacola... :\ DAMN IT

So now I am finding a way to add music onto my blogger. And I uploaded a picture of a fish eye photo for Michelle :p